Saturday, November 28, 2009

what a day!

I woke up early this afternoon... ok late afternoon... whatever… this afternoon… too early for my night shift... I grabbed my phone to check the messages. I only got one unread message. It was from Rey saying not to forget to eat before I go to work... It was sweet... but when you receive the same message everyday... its like a spoiled bacon... sour... anyway I'm not complaining… at least there's one person who cares... and that other guy?!! He is not worth a word in my blog hahah (taste of bitterness)...

I grabbed a bag of sandwich and orange juice to start my day... took a bath... dressed up... I always like dressing up even when you know people just wear shorts and slippers on a Friday night shift. Oh yeah we can wear rags during weekends… isn’t that grand?

Before coming to work, I went to pay a visit to my cousin. He’s father (my uncle) died last Friday and I never had the chance to visit them. Work wont let me… with all the trainings on top of my shift… My shift ended 12NN… training started 2pm and ended 10pm… my shift the next day started 12MN… and that happened for 2 days…. So sleeping was really not an option… I said my sorry to my cousin… and promised her that I will be there for the burial…

I excused myself and went to work… before coming up I always grab a cup of coffee and puff some sticks… wala lang para relax…

While doing my coaching sheets let me stress, 25 coaching sheets.. I’m on my 20th agent when I started to feel dizzy and my stomach turning upside down. Hyperacidity attack! Orange juice and coffee? Not a good combination… I went to the toilet to let it out…. Took Krimel – S to settle the pain… later after I had an ice cream....

Today was the last day for our certification… four of my agents went to the 3rd and final round. Two did not make it… I didn’t have a tough heart to tell them the bad news so I asked their trainer to break the bad news… it crushed my heart seeing them cry….

Looking back, I had done my best to coach them… pushed them harder… evaluated their weaknesses… gave them tips on how to cope. Discussed them their areas of opportunities… but I just didn’t see them trying hard…

Ironic though… how I wanted the other agent not to pass…. (eye_spy - why did you let her pass?) Now I have to bear with her for another four months before regularization… she better prove her ass or she’ll go down the drain!

Anyways, its a weekend.. I'm looking forward to watch a movie... it has been a while I realized.

What a day…

Monday, November 16, 2009

taken for granted

Sana ang relationship ay parang Math exam lang. I'm sure I will ace it. Mag review ka lang, practice nag pag solve. analyze konti... sure na perfect ka na sa mid-term exams. If may mali ok lang din 80% naman ang passing eh. Bawi ka na lang sa finals. A 1.3 final grade won't hurt.


I hope a relationship is just like applying for a job, turn in you resume and get interviewed. I'm sure I'll bag it. Discuss mo lang strengths mo. achievements. mention your weakness and things you have been doing to overcome it... Action Plan kung tawagin.


iba ang matters of the heart. mahirap. you always feel you are not good enough. try ko naman best ko. I spare time naman for him. but I'm just taken for granted. I tried to understand him... ayaw naman mag salita kung tatanungin ko if there's something wrong. I'm not mind reader kasi.

I have changed my perspective in a relationship. because the my ideal guy, yung nasa listahan mo like what you like in a person... yeah nakilala ko cya.. perfect talaga yun.. nag match lahat sa listahan ko.. all the charaters I had been lookng for ay nasa kanya... however, my ideal guy broke my heart. therefore nasabi ko sa sarili ko that my list is not perfect after all. Hindi naman ako nag hahanap ng perfect... naging tumpak lang talaga cya sa listahan ko... but I realized my ideal guy is not ideal for me after all.


so iniba ko listahan ko. iniba ko pananaw ko sa isang relationship. somehow, yung ma feel ko that I'm special.. that I'm needed. wala na yang looks sa number 1 spot.... (eye_spy ibaba ang kilay mo) bonus na lang cguro para sa akin...

after two weeks naming hindi nagkita because conflict ng schedule. nagkita kami sa famous mango ave... with his friends and me with my friends. medyo may kalabu-an ang aking paningin.. I have not upgraded my lens and I dont like glasses on me because I look snob already how much more with a glasses. So he grabbed me to get my attention. Hindi lang naman cya nagtanong how am I doing? nor nag send ng sms na lalabas cya.. we could have ccome together. hindi na man cya nag re-reply sa text ko lately...

kung sa work may action plan... when taking a test may review.. pero sa relationship? if its broken.. wala na... hindi mo ma work ang areas of opportunity if the other person is not willing to commit with the action plan. he went home without saying goodbye.. he just left me there...

I tried relationship differently but same lang ang outcome... sayang... nanghina pa naman tuhod ko sa kanya.. hhahahahahha malamig ang simoy nang hangin...


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I'm not sure if my tagalog is correct and if i spell them right (when do you use yong or yung... kong or kung and the likes).. hahahahha next challenge dapat hindi na taglish...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

my promise

who said that life of a TL is fun.

I used to sleep at least 8 hours a day... now am lucky if i get at least 4 hours.

I used to enjoy my two rest days... I have to go back to the office on a Saturday night to finish a report

I used to care my own stat... now i have to check my team stat.

who needs a planner if your only an agent... My to do list for the next two weeks are now filled!

and more..



However somehow... it feels great... not to be above of everyone but someone to be there for my team. My TEAM.

it is the satisfaction you get for being THE team lead. of course aside from the $$$.

I lost 5 lbs even though I'm not watching what i eat... I normally loss weight if i deprive myself from eating pork and sugar...

am taking pills for extra strength so not to look stress. I only take pills when studying or reviewing... now i need it everyday to keep up.

clothes matter now. people look at you... although even before I always dress up to impress. hhahaha

25 different personalities. One ME. what's keeping me is my promise...

The promise that i will not become the team lead I used to have. (we are good friends... but your just not a good TL for me - not enough). I love my team. i will take care of them.

Behind all these difficulties... at the end of the day.... its satisfying... to know that you are loved by your team as well.