it started with a dream

I said my last thank you for calling today. I was about to log out at 12pm when my call master rang. Good thing I have not closed my PC yet. It was a memorable call because it was the first thing I've learned in training.

I said my farewell to my account. I love this account.. for six years I've met true friends. who loves me, hates me, made me laugh and made me cry.


it all started with a dream. which I work so hard. even tripled my efforts for I'm not so lucky like others. I faltered. I cried. On the verge of quitting. had planned of moving out to Manila or help with family business. with all the challenges and difficulties, I told myself I have to rise... instead of mourning I converted it into an energy to keep me going (I am an engineer, we love physics). I've learned from my experiences, what went wrong.. evaluated myself and worked on what I lack (talking about tripling my efforts)...

then one day, my attention was called. I was scheduled for interview. my clothes we not appropriate for an interview, the manager did not mind. it went well, i'd hoped.

the following day... my manager asked me to visit her at her desk for a feedback... she was discussing the highlights of the interview and i was waiting for her to say the big BUT... I know I was being jaded. But when she said "Congratulations, you got the job"... I could not help myself to shout in glee. and tears began to fall and I was shaking... a sweet victory... its something that you really worked hard for...

then everyone stood up when they heard me... they clapped and i love the sound of it... i could still remember it... my friends were crying.. tears of joy for they know how hard I worked for it... they were also sad because I'm leaving the account.

Oct 23, 2009 was a great day. That was when I have achieved my dream. I'm newest Team Lead.

no honey in my bed nor ice cream for sex...

I woke up early this morning feeling so hot... not the sex mood hotness... nor feverish type... my skin was flaming... they wear tearing... the outer skin felt numb but the insides flesh were burning. I'd scratch them to death.. it was very itchy every inch of my cells... I was catching my breath.. they were short...

an ant bite almost killed me.. i hate them.. good thing antihistamine was invented... I had allergic reactions... I thought it was the crab that ate for lunch yesterday... I found the culprit.. and it bit me on my right rib side... how dare this ant attack me while am sleeping.. its not fair..

Rule #1 - no eating in my room especially on my bed.. so no breakfast in bed for me... thanks being thoughtful honey but its a no-no for me... and skip the strawberry and creme for our sex... unless you volunteer to change the sheet before we sleep... no time right after tiresome of banging... maple syrup is inviting.. hey what about sugar free ice cream?.. OK.. this is not about sex...

how ironic because I had to roam the city to check for a pharmacy when we own one?! well, there's nobody home to open it... driving to the city would take about the same time opening our store... and the last time I had an ant attack was eons ago.. and I had not checked my pill box if i still have a supply.

dating

i dont know for some reason I feel irritable today coming to the office... but its not like its the first... hormonal imbalance? haha.. under sex? I just had one before coming to work...

Somehow my station is sooo hot... ironic the AC is not broken... and I feel hungry.. am looking for chocolate but can't find even just one bar...

I just found out my schedule for December and January... oh yeah... I have work on Dec 24 and Dec 31... for three years now... isn't that grand... Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to me and my bitchiest clients... excuse my french...

no champagne.. no family and no boyfriend... oh yeah am seeing someone now... more of dating stage and getting to know more of each other... but we had sex already... and its often... hahahah

and please I hope it will last for more than a week... it will be a record breaker... he knocks me off my feet ok... made me smile even am in the middle of something.. and sex is the best... rough and dirty... who's the best slut in town? My best friend says its him... oh isn't that one of the reasons why we are friends... cheers to that...

what I like about our sex is... he talks dirty... i never liked talking dirty during sex... .. but there's something on how he says it... shit! ang sarap... sounds like that... to add... mamatay ko bai.. kalami! okay enough of that I'm drooling thinking of it... sigh... I love sex... and its not even fiull moon... hahahha

Full Moon

I cant help but appreciate the beauty of the moon. When I stare at it at its full state, I'm like mesmerize by its charm. Its glow widens my eyes in awe. not only that... it glows the lust inside me...

Every time i learn that its full moon and when i see it glow in the sky... I can feel a sudden rush of my blood... I feel like burning... I'm not at ease and my breathe is short... and the cool night breeze suddenly changes to warm. I can feel it in my cheeks... I bet i'm turning red... it feels like my muscles are tearing... my ears are are really hot... okay im not a werewolf. but somehow feels like I am...

there's a feeling to hunt... hunt for sex? to satisfy the thirst... coz it feels like i'm ready to explode...

just like today... my cravings were filled... but I'm not satisfied... he was done at first round... when I just felt the heat.. so disappointing when guys cant go up to rounds at least... I want some biting... some slapping... I want it in bed.. in the floor.. in the chair... I want it rough... some pushing... and pulling of hair... dont ask me if it hurts... it does but its a pleasure...

oh well.. until next full moon... i'm just writing it to make me calm... coz i'm off to work now... I cant feel this way...